Tuesday, April 29, 2014

Closet Treasures

She left office at 8. As she stepped out, a cool breeze swept her face. 

She didn't feel like going home.She thought, she would go out for some retail therapy. It was quite long(around 2 weeks:P) that she had not got anything new. 

As she reached the shopping mall, she could see a huge poster of a leading actress wearing sexy office clothes - A black polka dots shirt teamed up with a black pencil skirt and high heels. 
She instantly loved it. She could imagine herself out there on the poster.

She walked into the mall, thinking it would be easy to find one. She spent around 2 hours until it was time to close but could not find anything. She purchased a small pendant and left for the night.Her thought process compelled her to atleast buy something or the other(though un-important) 

It was 6 AM, time to go for a walk. Her schedule was too perfect to include anything else inside. As she put on her active wear, images of the black polka dot flashed right on her face. She was like, is it ? Do I love it so much ? Her mind was stuck. 

She quickly took the steps and went on for her morning walk. As she walked by, she could still think about the same attire. Her mind was definitely not in admiring nature at that hour.

What if she got the exact piece ? Would her best friend be jealous ? Would everyone in the office love it ? Would that be appropriate to wear in a place like Ahmedabad ?

                       Devils in disguise of countless thoughts crowded her.

It was time to get back home and jump-start herself towards her work-place.She thought she did leave office early and try to look in an another mall. 

She reached office and thought to look it up online. She could find everything but nothing that really clicked her mind. 

She tried to work and concentrate. She left early to an another mall. Nothing, at all. She dialled her best friend's number and cut it off. 

                 Why am I becoming such an obsessed creature after a top!!! 

It had been two weeks, that she had been visiting various malls but could not find anything at all.

Sunday morning! She was supposed to meet her friends over lunch. It was her usual nature to dress up perfectly with not a hair out of place.And she knew she did take time to decide and dress up. 

                  Today it was only the polka dots that were dotted on her mind.

She walked towards her closet and wanted to just dress up casually. 
As she looked around, she found too much stuff. She thought, time to clean it up a bit and no more shopping ( Her heart just winked slyly) 

She thought she did just cancel going out and spend time in there. She called up and said no. A lil bit of drama but she knew she did convince her friends. 

She started pulling out her treasures one by one. She remembered how her dad counted her t-shirts while she was in college. She was obsessed. Too much obsessed with clothes. Nothing in the world could excite her than the mere name of shopping. And at one point she did love every piece of thread in her closet.

She looked at all her t-shirts, tops, dresses and what not. As she sat between piles of different fibers and colors, she could see a black and white thing which she had not seen for years. What is that ? 

Ecstatic moment!!! It was a black polka dot shirt which she had taken some years back, not wore it once and put it back in there,completely forgetting about it.

Really, Is this what I was searching for since weeks ? Something that was hidden inside my closet ? Something That long back I did not care for ? 

It din't take time now for her to realize. She realized, it was time to look inside. 

                   Inside her, Inside that hidden closet of hers - Her soul.  

Friday, April 25, 2014

Silent Conversations.

Silence. Peace. Serene. Calm.
Sometimes the mind, the heart needs to stand still and listen to itself. 

When was the last time you heard these words? The last time when you did something that you could hear your own heartbeats ? 

As I sat down to write this, it took time - cause I got lost on why do I write? Do I write so that people would love it ? Do I write so that I could get an extra like ? Do I write cause someone out there is so desperate to read my blog ? And, as there is silence all around - I could hear myself say - I write for myself! The same way, I live for myself! Not cause the world wants to see me or hear me - nevertheless, there are only a few who are really interested in our presence or absence! But, it is you - yourself and that is why you live, you love and you laugh! 

Today there is no topic - it is just the heart that vomits itself on this page - today there is no goal of people liking the post or not, today there is nothing attached to this! And, Here is the first thing we really need to learn - removing ourselves from the attachments! It is definitely an old adage stating free yourself from all attachments and seek the path towards liberation! How I wish if people could atleast free themselves from the worldly material possessions and move on to become a master-piece of peace, bliss and being calm. (And, when I say people, It does include me!) 

I have been making use of my time, making use of this opportunity as I see a new window out to the world - Listening to the chirping of birds, the voice of the trees, feeling the wind, looking at the sun - for once, taking time out and sitting there doing nothing.

Quitting the life race, quitting those repetitive thoughts of fame,success and money. 

This whole perspective of silence has helped me to emerge a new me. A me that never existed, A me that never was. 
The silence has engulfed in me to produce out newer perspectives of life. A whole of ME! someone whom I did not know earlier - something around me that truly explains me what Life should be.

For once, I have gained a perspective to take time out and enjoy the smaller things in life. 
Enjoying that hot cup of tea, with cold winds pushing off your hair, For once enjoying the warmth of love, for once enjoying the touch, for once enjoying doing nothing. 

Life would go on and on, your desires to achieve things would go on and on, the desire to be happy, the desire to feel bliss, the desire to be satisfied in itself leads to a lot of dis-satisfaction around. 

Cause we are slaves of our own desires, leading us to be unhappy constantly.

There needs to be a time when life should stand-still to enjoy the small pleasures of life - you don't need exotic vacations, you need a quiet walk together, holding hands, talking nothing and yet feel bliss. 

Sometimes, if life puts you in a situation, take time to indulge in loving yourself, know yourself, know what goes inside you,know about the different perspectives of life!

There are complaints, there is a lot of cribbing, there are too many expectations, those unfulfilled desires - those desires which make you think, you would be happy if you achieved that. These are the smaller aspects of life - the bigger picture is inside you. 

If you listen to the gushing of winds and thank god that you have sharp ears, that is where life starts for you. If you can watch a bird fly, and thank god that you have eyesight - that is where exactly life starts for you. Cause, these are the bigger blessings of life. These are some of the best things we have achieved. 
More importantly if you had time to watch the bird fly, if you had time to hear the winds, you have achieved it all. 

If you think, you can pen down your thoughts, you have heard your inside self and nothing in the world is greater than hearing your soul. 

Re-living it, pampering it and throwing out ample amount of positivity out there in the world. 

If there is someone, who reads this and feels great, you have done your part in the universe. 
If there is someone, whom you have heard out, you have done your part in the universe. 
If there is someone, you have to guide to a right path, you have done your part. 

Go ahead, be selfish and do your part in the universe with some silent conversations.