She was going to be in her "teens". Use those slang words
more often, start to say "kewwwwllll" and not to forget meet
"Dudes". She could envisage a whole new teenage life of bliss, independence, fun and parties.
She had waited since long
to reach her "teens" - that's what everyone used to say - "Wait till
you are a teenager" and it was less than 24 hours when she would be reaching
there.
She could not concentrate
on the class. She was excited what it would be tonight.
Will her friends throw
in some midnight party ? Would her mom allow it ? Come on, I am a teen now - I
will be allowed some more freedom - mixed thoughts and mused ramblings.
In the midst of all those thoughts, she felt her cheeks twitch. She was too excited to notice and ignored it.
She looked at her crush.
She thought - wow, he is cute. Will he come tonight ?
The clock struck
midnight. Her phone started ringing and she heard a knock on her bedroom
door.
As she walked towards her door,she noticed herself in the mirror, and it
was unbelievable to what she was seeing!!!!
For the first time in her
life, her skin was red, there were small rashes across her once-flawless cheeks
- she moved a bit closer and she could see small,red pimples on her
cheeks.
Her eyes could not
believe it because not once in her life did she ever see that on her
face and that too on her birthday!!
She came back to her
senses to realize that somebody was on the door. With tears in her eyes and
trying to hide her face, she opened the door.
It was her mom - she
could see her tears and also the small pimples on her cheeks.
She wished her a very
happy birthday and handed her a packet.
With tears in her eyes
and losing all interest in the birthday, thinking what her friends would say
and more importantly, would her crush ever look at her again - she opened the
packet.
Her mom smiled and said - this is what will help you through your
"Teens"
Go, try it.
She was reluctant at
first but as she read that It contains real Neem Leaf and Tree Tea Oil extracts which could fight germs,fight pollution and remove oil,she got excited about it and tried it out.
Next morning, as she woke up and
looked at herself in the mirror - she could see there was a significant change
in her face. The redness had lessened and she was sure she could rock her
birthday.
The birth-giver - To my
body and to my soul and to all that is inside me.
This is the story of my
"And" - She does not have a one-dimensional label because no
amount of dimensions could envisage her power in this boundless world.
Her power amplifies day
by day - the power of giving, the power of loving and the power of caring.
Choices and Sacrifices. You first and
me later!
Any point of the time - day and night - there was no OR.
She is the lady with
infinite AND's - She is my teacher AND my doctor AND my guide AND my
philosopher AND my Feng-Shui expert AND my cooking class teacher and my best
friend and this and that and, and, and..the list could go on - to what she is
in our lives.
Her touch could heal you
in seconds and her voice could enlighten you every single time.
The lady who taught me
my first ABC and the lady whose warmth is never less,irrespective whether the
sun would shine or not - her soul shined in front of us always. On
cloudy,gloomy days - there she is - ready to charge us up with her own
sun-shine.
She is the lady who
could take all my sufferings be it broken bones and broken hearts.
The lady who has a
solution to every single,every single thing in the world, in our life.
The lady whom I can call
and ask what do I do now - no matter what the time is!
The lady who is
our pillar and a base to US - My Mom and my best friend ever
The
lady who instilled in us that nothing in this world is ever impossible.
The
lady who taught me how to deal with the riots of heart , how to tame my
angry,wild and raw self.
The
lady who taught me I could do anything in this world.
That
I could be a Project manager and a great wife at one point of time and that I
could rule the world and that I could be ruled by my husband's heart.
The
lady from whom I learnt how to say yes and no. The lady who taught me that one
dollar saved could add up to the one million some day. The lady who taught that
it's ok to cry and that it's ok to laugh.
And
the lady who is so inspiring that if anybody would have asked me today what I
did want to be - I would always say - I want to be her.
That
I want her strength and her ability and that I want to love like her and have a
humor like her.
At
one moment, the lady could tell you stop doing this and an another moment she
is the one kick-starting the fire in you.
The
lady who taught me never to give up even if you did fall a thousand times.
The
lady who has the ability to manage three children, who are at the three
different countries and the lady who has the ability to be her husband's wife
and her father's daughter at the same time.
This
journey would never end cause parts of her has what has built us and parts of
us will build the next generation.
The
lady who could be magical and mystic at the same and who could pray for you day
and night without forgetting a single problem of yours.
She
is the lady who could learn technology at an age nobody would want to learn
anything. She is the one who could go out and take any course in the United
states and she is the one who could do double shifts, chat with her three
children and their other-halfs, she is the one who could cook thrice a day, go
out grocery shopping,buy things for each of us and give us random advices every
single day.
The
one and only inspiration that we all have, that forces us to believe that we
cannot be labelled with just one title and that we are a sum of everything that
the universe holds.
She
is the one who would make you think - if mom can do,I can do it too. She is the
one who taught us how to be patient and how to be aggressive when needed.
She
is the one who can hold the sadness ocean within herself to protect us from the
waves of sorrow and the depths of darkness.
The
lady who told me that I could be beautiful and enchanting. That I could be
charming and creative. That I could hold into myself anything that I would want
to be. That I am water and can take any form I wish to be in, that today I
could join the ocean and not be afraid of the vastness and that tomorrow I
could freeze myself and stay put in one place.
She
is the one who told me how awesome it is to be a girl and how awesome it is to
become a woman, a wife and then a mother.
She
is the one who passed on to me that I can be a little girl and that I can
mature when the time tells me to and that I can play and that I can work.
She is my inspiration
who tells me that I can sleep late and yet wake up early in the morning. She is
the one who tells me its OK to be fat and that its OK to
be thin.
She is the one who tells
me that its OK to be what I am - she is the one who tells me
that I am unique and I could add anything to this world with my uniqueness.
She is the one who tells
me its OK to be selfish and that its OK to think about
yourself for a while and she is the one who for one second of her life has
never been selfish and who has always put us in the front line to complete our
desires and our aspirations.
She
is the one who can look young and carry a glow cause she is a proud mother who
knows that she has three awesome parts of her in the world who could contribute
their parts in making this world a better place to live, laugh and love.
I
wish to never end this, but she is the one who also tells me to keep my
Gillette everywhere so that I could have more sexier,shinier legs and
that if a woman feels good today, she could change anybody's world.
And
that there are no finite amount of things that I could do - the world is
infinite and there are possibilities and that I can never be labelled ever.
And
this is my story of being an infinite "And" and to ask someone
"And?" when they tell me I am caring :)
Words might betray. Gestures might be wrong. The spark in your eyes may fade.
But, the hand that can hold our hand, under all seasons, is the one we all look
for.
Four Years and counting. Met
through a matrimony site but never felt that way. Love struck Rhea and
Nikhil, played their chords so romantically, that knotted them forever
in this beautiful journey.
Dipped in oceans of love,
flying with the stars, singing and dancing, Swirling and Twirling to each
other's tunes -Both of them din’t know the real meaning of love until they met.
Until, they both touched each other. Touch – A simple touch that touched their
souls.
And everybody said, this is all
in the start of the journey – Let time pass!
Days and nights unfolded
themselves in each other’s arms – they could talk even if they were silent. It
was like as though,they had seized the secret recipe of TOUCH.
Couples around them grew old in
love, they changed, but they were still fresh in love!
Their friends could witness the
passion of closed eyes and mixed emotions, each moment was a new slice of life,
untangled emotions, the silent whisperings and mushy smiles, those soft
feelings, that soft touch – What on earth was there between the two – which
made them fall for each other every single time they took their breath?
Everybody wanted to know – the magic, the mystical passion between them!
They loved to party and on one
such occasion at their place, Anjali, Rhea's friend, found a curvy purple
colored bottle – She took it in her hands. Parachute advansed body lotion.
She was lost in thoughts, reading about the richness of the goodness of coconut
and 100% natural moisturisers that could give you soft, smooth &
nourished body skin in just 7 days!!!
She opened it, checking around,
if nobody was checking on her :P.
The mesmerizing smell brought Rhea
towards her. Anjali was dumb-founded.
Rhea told her to relax and said “
This is our magic potion of TOUCH. You don’t have to bring back the touch, if you do not let it go”.
The only way to keep passion is
not wait to rekindle the spark, but to keep lighting the spark, daily and this
is how we #BringBackTheTouch.
Temperatures decided to drop. Summer wanted to end itself..Autumn was on its way..but the cold wanted to squeeze itself between them. I could dream something new today but I chose to relish my fulfilled dreams instead. I could listen to my mind..but I chose the heart over it.
Getting up a bit early instead I chose to sleep in some more...
My mind did tell me to have that green tea but I chose to have an another cup of black tea with that extra mint and extra sugar..
My will power told me to get on the yoga mat but I chose to curl up with you and feel the warmth that I longed for so long..feel the fluttering of your eye lashes on my back..
Time told me to take a quick shower but I chose to fall into a long bubble bath and smell the candles that are hard to smell..I wished to let us make an effort to pull in deep, breathe multiple times to decide whether they smell or not..
I wish to lie in there and think who would make tea again..I wish to walk out of the room and make it, only to not overcome my sluggy-ness..the guilt doesn't win and I get that extra cup today from you..
I wish to let loose of the future and feel the times which I wanted to live for so long..
I wish to stand outside your winter closet and tell you wear whatever you want but yet pick out one for you..I wish to discuss whether it shrinked yesterday though you are late for work..
I wish to stand on your feet and hear your heartbeats..feel your warmth against me..
I wish to not wave you goodbye till the garage door and curl up inside again..I wish to just live today without the guilt of not dreaming again.
I wish to know for how long should we relish what we wanted really bad before trying to engulf ourselves into new desires ?
How long should I be what I am with you - till the twinkle in my eyes last, till the heart whispers your name, till it is beyond forever ?
She left office at 8. As she stepped out, a cool breeze swept her face.
She didn't feel like going home.She thought, she would go out for some retail therapy. It was quite long(around 2 weeks:P) that she had not got anything new.
As she reached the shopping mall, she could see a huge poster of a leading actress wearing sexy office clothes - A black polka dots shirt teamed up with a black pencil skirt and high heels.
She instantly loved it. She could imagine herself out there on the poster.
She walked into the mall, thinking it would be easy to find one. She spent around 2 hours until it was time to close but could not find anything. She purchased a small pendant and left for the night.Her thought process compelled her to atleast buy something or the other(though un-important)
It was 6 AM, time to go for a walk. Her schedule was too perfect to include anything else inside. As she put on her active wear, images of the black polka dot flashed right on her face. She was like, is it ? Do I love it so much ? Her mind was stuck.
She quickly took the steps and went on for her morning walk. As she walked by, she could still think about the same attire. Her mind was definitely not in admiring nature at that hour.
What if she got the exact piece ? Would her best friend be jealous ? Would everyone in the office love it ? Would that be appropriate to wear in a place like Ahmedabad ?
Devils in disguise of countless thoughts crowded her.
It was time to get back home and jump-start herself towards her work-place.She thought she did leave office early and try to look in an another mall.
She reached office and thought to look it up online. She could find everything but nothing that really clicked her mind.
She tried to work and concentrate. She left early to an another mall. Nothing, at all. She dialled her best friend's number and cut it off.
Why am I becoming such an obsessed creature after a top!!!
It had been two weeks, that she had been visiting various malls but could not find anything at all.
Sunday morning! She was supposed to meet her friends over lunch. It was her usual nature to dress up perfectly with not a hair out of place.And she knew she did take time to decide and dress up.
Today it was only the polka dots that were dotted on her mind.
She walked towards her closet and wanted to just dress up casually.
As she looked around, she found too much stuff. She thought, time to clean it up a bit and no more shopping ( Her heart just winked slyly)
She thought she did just cancel going out and spend time in there. She called up and said no. A lil bit of drama but she knew she did convince her friends.
She started pulling out her treasures one by one. She remembered how her dad counted her t-shirts while she was in college. She was obsessed. Too much obsessed with clothes. Nothing in the world could excite her than the mere name of shopping. And at one point she did love every piece of thread in her closet.
She looked at all her t-shirts, tops, dresses and what not. As she sat between piles of different fibers and colors, she could see a black and white thing which she had not seen for years. What is that ?
Ecstatic moment!!! It was a black polka dot shirt which she had taken some years back, not wore it once and put it back in there,completely forgetting about it.
Really, Is this what I was searching for since weeks ? Something that was hidden inside my closet ? Something That long back I did not care for ?
It din't take time now for her to realize. She realized, it was time to look inside.
Inside her, Inside that hidden closet of hers - Her soul.
Silence. Peace. Serene. Calm. Sometimes the mind, the heart needs to stand still and listen to itself. When was the last time you heard these words? The last time when you did something that you could hear your own heartbeats ? As I sat down to write this, it took time - cause I got lost on why do I write? Do I write so that people would love it ? Do I write so that I could get an extra like ? Do I write cause someone out there is so desperate to read my blog ? And, as there is silence all around - I could hear myself say - I write for myself! The same way, I live for myself! Not cause the world wants to see me or hear me - nevertheless, there are only a few who are really interested in our presence or absence! But, it is you - yourself and that is why you live, you love and you laugh! Today there is no topic - it is just the heart that vomits itself on this page - today there is no goal of people liking the post or not, today there is nothing attached to this! And, Here is the first thing we really need to learn - removing ourselves from the attachments! It is definitely an old adage stating free yourself from all attachments and seek the path towards liberation! How I wish if people could atleast free themselves from the worldly material possessions and move on to become a master-piece of peace, bliss and being calm. (And, when I say people, It does include me!) I have been making use of my time, making use of this opportunity as I see a new window out to the world - Listening to the chirping of birds, the voice of the trees, feeling the wind, looking at the sun - for once, taking time out and sitting there doing nothing. Quitting the life race, quitting those repetitive thoughts of fame,success and money. This whole perspective of silence has helped me to emerge a new me. A me that never existed, A me that never was. The silence has engulfed in me to produce out newer perspectives of life. A whole of ME! someone whom I did not know earlier - something around me that truly explains me what Life should be. For once, I have gained a perspective to take time out and enjoy the smaller things in life. Enjoying that hot cup of tea, with cold winds pushing off your hair, For once enjoying the warmth of love, for once enjoying the touch, for once enjoying doing nothing. Life would go on and on, your desires to achieve things would go on and on, the desire to be happy, the desire to feel bliss, the desire to be satisfied in itself leads to a lot of dis-satisfaction around. Cause we are slaves of our own desires, leading us to be unhappy constantly. There needs to be a time when life should stand-still to enjoy the small pleasures of life - you don't need exotic vacations, you need a quiet walk together, holding hands, talking nothing and yet feel bliss. Sometimes, if life puts you in a situation, take time to indulge in loving yourself, know yourself, know what goes inside you,know about the different perspectives of life! There are complaints, there is a lot of cribbing, there are too many expectations, those unfulfilled desires - those desires which make you think, you would be happy if you achieved that. These are the smaller aspects of life - the bigger picture is inside you. If you listen to the gushing of winds and thank god that you have sharp ears, that is where life starts for you. If you can watch a bird fly, and thank god that you have eyesight - that is where exactly life starts for you. Cause, these are the bigger blessings of life. These are some of the best things we have achieved. More importantly if you had time to watch the bird fly, if you had time to hear the winds, you have achieved it all. If you think, you can pen down your thoughts, you have heard your inside self and nothing in the world is greater than hearing your soul. Re-living it, pampering it and throwing out ample amount of positivity out there in the world. If there is someone, who reads this and feels great, you have done your part in the universe. If there is someone, whom you have heard out, you have done your part in the universe. If there is someone, you have to guide to a right path, you have done your part. Go ahead, be selfish and do your part in the universe with some silent conversations.
